Totally Screwed

What a day it is. From the get go you keep feeling you are going to get screwed. And It doesn't seems to be ending any sooner.

I have to linearize my work and every day I think , I will do it and every thing will fall into place but the thing which i should learn is, things do not fall in places on their own you have to make that happen. It is a very valuable lesson which I should have learn earlier, but god has been kind to me as a result I was always saved but this time it doesn't seem to be happening. I need to suck up a little and make things fall in place.

First thing first. I cannot do much for the trip except taking this letter to the concerned authority and give it to them.

Most Important thing that I have to do is my thesis. I need a plan for it. Lets set up a list that i have to do.

1. Figure out a way to solve the problem of displaying content and code it.
2. Find out how the data is stored in drupal for a node.
3. Integration of the third party code into drupal CMS.

These three things of My thesis is the work I have to do by tomorrow.

Today I have to make the Lab Questions and start correcting the copies. Rite now I have a football match, which I have to attend and see from there what else I have to do.

Pizza Day

Yesterday was a gr8 day TVP sir was happy with me. I am still gloating and the feeling of complacency has found its way as usual. After doing nothing yesterday I havent done anything significant today also but one can say watching a movie and a serial and reading a few lines of drupal7 can be counted as work. Deep down inside I know that is not how and CSE student whd have liked his day to have gone and to add to it I am having Pizza after convincing myself that i am going to workout and reduce my waist and during that time I am going to stay away from Pizza, so much for having a strong will.

I always dream of doing so much thing, accomplishing so many quests like doing PHD, being a cool programmer or having sound knowledge of maths and any other topic of computer science. I will plan for it in before going to bed and dream of executing them but when i wake up no such desire is there and I just want to get through the day with doing the bare minimum. Today while reading the a book read a gr8 fact and it made me realize it is 99% of the time deadline set by me is it not fulfilled and the explation provided by a 11 year old kid sounded so cool. It makes you feel so small in front of the knowledge and wisdom that kid has to make such a inference at an age of 11. When I was 11 years old all i could think of was outsmarting other kids in the class and had a rivalry wid snigdha and did my best to show her I was the greatest and there also I whd like to do the bare minimum to accomplish the tasks.

I hope this realization will help me get over it and I will show some maturity and work hard enough to get my work done in time or I will be realistic enough to plan and dream of things which I will do till completion and not just dream of them and forget.